Today is another sad day going to bed with tears in my eyes. Laying next to Jayden and feeling like he’s the only reason why I’m still here. I just have to keep praying to God that it will get better. I feel like I’ve lost everyone in my life. I have to build the… Continue reading

Day in the life, Mommy & Jayden

Of course my creative juices are most ripe when I have so much to do. These photos were taken this morning when we woke up, faces washed, messy hair, bare face for me, pajamas all day. My every day consists of making breakfast for Jayden & I, either oatmeal, yogurt + peanut butter, or scrambled… Continue reading Day in the life, Mommy & Jayden

elixir

What breathes life into you? Mine is: My son’s two tooth grin The rustling of sheets when he’s crawling towards me to wake me up The bing of a text message back when you have found another layer beneath rock bottom Words coming together when you have misplaced yourself in the pile of dirty laundry… Continue reading elixir

How the people we’ve lost still move through us.

My Lolo died when I was three. If anyone ever asked me if it were possible to love someone without really knowing them, I would nod my head fervently because this is how I felt about him. The only memories I have with my Lolo are just from the old home videos I've seen of… Continue reading How the people we’ve lost still move through us.

Finding My Place in Motherhood

Writing this at 1am. Baby is sleeping soundly in his crib to the sounds of ocean waves on the speaker. I wish I could have written a post like this sooner but between finding a moment to rest my eyes and comforting baby close to me, there has really been little time to dedicate myself… Continue reading Finding My Place in Motherhood